Long time, no see!
I thought it would be a good time to post an update to my blog..
Note: the post underneath the cut contains discussion about death and mental health. If these topics are triggering for you, this post may be worth skipping.
So I haven’t posted regularly in nearly a year. My last blog post being a stray observations about Maquia back in July. A lot has happened in the intervening months.. so what made me stop?
I wanted to write a brief note giving you some insight about that, plus some thoughts about the future of this blog.
Summer 2018 was a very busy time for me in my personal life – I was preparing to move out of my parents’ home and stake out on my own for the first time since college. Handling that legwork came with a lot of stress, so I felt I needed to lighten my load in terms of personal projects. In addition to blogging about manga, I also have been really involved in music as a hobby (aspiring vocalist, have had my hands dirty in amateur production for a few years), and I like to cook. Just having to accept that one thing would get dropped was hard.. and unfortunately, I decided that updating the blog was the “easiest” thing to drop.
The good news is that the blood, sweat and tears paid off. I was able to secure an apartment, and have officially been moved out on my own for about six months now! The bad news is that it came with a lot of stress on its own.
Some of that stress was direct – I am still figuring out how to manage my money on a tighter budget. Living with my parents was relatively stress-free because they didn’t ask me to pay rent of any kind – if I took care of my space and respected theirs, I could stay there for free. The upside is that I was able to put a lot of money away in savings. But now I have much less money to put away in my situation. It’s getting easier, but I still feel intimidated by it pretty regularly.
Other stress was indirect. Long story short, a member of the extended family died suddenly the same weekend I moved out, and it had a ripple effect that permanently changed my family dynamic. Members of my immediate family are not on speaking terms, and being caught in the middle of it has been hard. To top it off, the circumstances behind the family member’s death triggered me and brought back a lot of painful memories. It has been difficult to grapple with.
Other factors have contributed to stress (the government shutdown, the new 2019 tax laws, a last minute wedding that I had to book travel for), but those are less prevalent. Thankfully, now that winter is ending, I am starting to feel like myself again.
Through all this, I have thought about this blog pretty consistently. I stopped writing about manga at one point, but I never stopped reading it during my hiatus. Far from it, actually; I’ve been exposed to so many great series in those months, including Maison Ikkoku, Hunter × Hunter, Please Save My Earth, The Seven Deadly Sins, Goodnight Punpun, Again!!, Moteki, and Banana Fish. These stories couldn’t be more different, but they’re all worth talking about in some way.
All this to say, I think I’m ready to start posting to this site again. I’m ready to start sharing my thoughts with you all again. I’m not ready to post anything quite yet, but I am going to start putting drafts together soon.
Moving forward, posts will probably be less frequent. To compromise, the posts you do see from me will be longer in length, with (hopefully) more substantive arguments, discussion, and analysis of the works being shared. I may also branch out into other topics, like books or live-action films. I’ve been really inspired by the work of YouTube content creators like Lindsay Ellis, Jenny Nicholson, PushingUpRoses, Tamashiihiroka, Quinton Reviews, and others, and I want to try my hand at analytical writing over the review style I had been using before. If that’s not your cup of tea, I understand. If you are interested in giving it a chance, I am beyond thankful.
Thank you very much for your patience. I am grateful for your support. I look forward to starting new conversations with you soon.